The music portrays the emotional loop…
the continuous reminiscing about the traumatic event
the never-ending anxiety and
paralyzing panic attacks…
… from which a traumatized person simply cannot escape.
I call this state the daemon trance
(and, unfortunately, I know it far too well…)” Pawel Grabowski
Recorded between January and May 2021 at SINE studio, Ireland.
but I’m not is Pawel Grabowski (processed live instruments, field recordings, objects.)
Mastering – Colin Potter at IC Studio, August 2021
”Sounds very much like a horror soundtrack. And although the music tells a story of a personal drama, it may as well reflect emotions each of us hides in the darkest corners of our souls.” Wojciech Diovis Szymanski
”A cross between Coil and the darkest, most schizophrenic Nurse With Wound records. A quick glance at the cover reveals what to expect.” Wojciech K
Review from Vital Weekly by Frans de Waard :